“Life is messy, Highness, anyone who says different is selling something.” Okay, so that might not be exactly the line that the masked Dread Pirate Roberts said, but he could’ve. In my experience, it’s just as true as the line he actually says about life being pain. Which makes sense – at least for me. If I look at the life of a butterfly as a metaphor for my spiritual life, than things get messy – like melty-goopy-change-from-caterpillar-to goop-BEFORE-the-butterfly messy.
Granted, the metaphor doesn’t always work as obviously as it does in my life. God doesn’t give us ALL messy lives. I have a very good friend, a woman who loves God with all of her heart, whom God seems to give exactly what she wants. She got married to the man she wanted to, WHEN she wanted to. Her wedding day was gorgeous, as she’d been praying for twelve years that it would be. She had a healthy baby pretty much exactly when she and her husband planned. She got a car when she wanted it. And the crazy thing is, it’s not like her parents are super wealthy to make sure she always gets what she wants. Not at all! Each and every time it’s completely, obviously, God!
I confess that sometimes in the middle of my messy life, usually during the unstable, painful moments, I wish I had her life. God DID NOT give me a stable life. Mine seems to be full of uncertainty, of surprises, of adventures, of not always knowing exactly how the bills will get paid, of wondering if I’m going to have to live all of it as a single gal. But the absolute crazy thing is, despite all that, I’m thrilled NOT to be living a predictable, stable life. I’m loving this crazy adventure. Sure, there are things I would change – but that’s what heaven’s for, right? And yes, I sometimes wish I knew what was coming next, or how long a certain station of life is going to last, but in looking back at my life, it’s probably been better that I haven’t known. I would’ve totally fought God if I’d known what was ahead.
I have a just-in-my-head-totally-untested theory as to why some people God gives totally stable, consistent lives, and others He gives crazy adventures. I think through stable lives, like that of my friend’s, He shows His constancy, His un-changing-ness. And through lives like mine, lives full of unexpected twists and turns that ALWAYS seem to be in transition, He shows His adventurous, daring, crazy-ness. Because somehow, in His immensity, God has both in His character. He is amazingly faithful and consistent. BUT He is also crazy, daring and adventurous.
SO, when life doesn’t go as planned, look for God. Look for God taking you on a crazy adventure that’ll take you who-knows-where, but during which you will learn SO much about Him. And, when life seems to just be humming along, contentedly, nothing special happening, everything going to plan, look for God’s faithfulness, His unchanging love for you.