It is late, and I have had a very long day, and I am in the middle of saying “good-bye” to two very special people who have been a huge part of my over the last five years and “hello” to two others who I suspect will become incredibly special to me as well. I am in the middle of a whirl-wind of emotions. Planning a sermon and parties and photo books on top of “normal” life.
I’m ready for things to slow down. I’m ready for this craziness to end.
But not really, because when it does, I’m that much closer to saying good-bye to my two dear friends.
I’m learning how incredibly precious each and every moment I am given is. I am realizing that I need to get better at simply enjoying and treasuring life – the crazy times, the heart-wrenching times, the tired times, the wonderful times, the every-day times. I’m not good at this. This is something I need to get better at, a gift God has given me that I need to learn to treasure.
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An Epic Life
I was driving home from church on Sunday, which means I was driving through the mountains, back down the hill towards Denver. And, because of the time of year, the mountains are actually green. This time of year is so pretty. The mountains are like a girl in a new pretty dress – she wears it and feels pretty in it and shows off a bit in it, twirling and just glowing with the knowledge that she’s pretty and people are noticing. The mountains are that way in late spring: full of vibrant green grass and trees and bushes. It’s gorgeous.
And as you drive through them, especially when the morning is cloudy and slightly misty with rain droplets as it was Sunday morning, it feels like you’re in the middle of Middle Earth, or Narnia, or Damar, or someplace epic. If you have any sort of imagination at all, it wouldn’t be hard to believe that you might see a centaur, or a faun, or an elf, or a hobbit, or a warrior-woman, or a man in a kilt, on the mountainside as you drive by, if you look hard enough. When it’s misty, and the mountains are green, there is an air of epic-ness. Something major, something world-shaping is bound to happen. It’s just gotta!
And I realized today, as I drove through the story-inviting mountains, that something in me is drawn to the idea of epic-ness, of living a life story that is heroic, that is different, that is bigger than myself.
And I think that’s not only me. It might be only a cushy-culture thing. Maybe I live such a safe life in this Western culture that does not require a day-to-day striving to survive, that the inner strength that God put in me to get through times of survival, turns into a longing for an epic, larger-than-life story.
Maybe it’s only me, and I need to look into how I’m living my life.
But I don’t think it’s just me.
There are too many people out there who love epic stories, whether in movies or in good-ol’ paper-back form, for me to believe that I am the only one who longs for an epic life story. There is something about a story with a supremely-evil, definitely-can’t-be-defeated, draws-you-in-and-then-kills-you villain that battles a little know-nothing, toothpicks-for-arms, just-woke-up-on-the-farm this morning good guy who doesn’t stand a chance. There is something about a story where the good guy has a couple close friends who encourage him and who help him do battle (though, of course, he must do the hardest, most dangerous, impossible part himself) that calls to something within (I’d wager) each human.
We were made for something bigger. Something in us deeply longs, more intensely than we can even realize, for a life story that is larger than our routines or jobs or love lives or furniture. Some people just dismiss the longing; others silence it (or try to).
But if you listen to that longing, if you listen to that still, quiet urge that you were created for something larger than iced coffee drinks (it’s okay, I love them too), than your life is never going to be the same. Because that voice is God, calling you to a life lived that isn’t spent completely or even mostly on you. That voice is the Holy Spirit in you, reminding you of your part in this redemption dance.
So listen, and follow. Who knows where it might lead? To green misty mountains, to the dumps in the Phillipines, to a camp in Ecuador, to the red light district in India, to your wealthy self-focused school, to the apathetic, comfortable people in suburbia America. Who knows?
Listen! And follow! After all, no matter how hard you try, this life does not have to be your own. It is so much more enjoyable when you give it away.
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In the Still Of The Morning
This last Sunday I was up early, and so had the time to sit out in the backyard, drink tea, and just soak in the early morning sun, the fresh air, the bird songs, and the general quiet. I never seem to do that sort of thing enough, and yet when I do, I am always aware that I need to be doing it on a much more consistent basis, and just how very good it is for my mental and spiritual health.
When I am quiet, still, and listening, when I am purposefully spending quality, enjoyable time with my savior, there is something deep within me that awakens. I am healthier. I am bolder. I am gentler. I am more patient. I am so much more aware of the needs of those around me, and so much more willing (and able) to enter into that need and minister as I may.
So, I guess that’s my challenge for you and for me this summer. Regularly spend quiet time* with the one who created you, with the one who loves you better than anyone else, the one who knows you better than anyone else, the one who stretches and protects you. Spend time listening to Him, quiet in His presence. See where He takes you, what He does in you!
* By quiet time, I do not mean spending 30 minutes reading the Bible. Do that too if you want, and certainly have it nearby, with, perhaps a journal, but spend the time simply being quiet, praying with words only if you must, and listening.
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Living in a material world
On Wednesday, I was sitting in the last class I would have of a course, (yay! Summer is here!) and we were talking about volunteers in churches, or more accurately, problematic volunteers.
This particular discussion was about what to do with volunteers who cause pain and division among a congregation – because, unfortunately, it happens. People want to serve in the church for all sorts of different reasons, and often, those reasons are selfish or poisonous (not that the volunteer realizes this, or has even taken the time to reflect on why she wants to volunteer). We joked about how it would be so nice to have a list of the people who moved from church to church, causing destruction (because that happens), or how maybe we should warn whatever church they are going to next (assuming they tell someone – which they usually do), or how we should maybe call their previous church to see what their impact was, before allowing them to serve in our church. Like, actually having references (and checking them) in order to volunteer with your church…or maybe even join the church.
Someone in my class likened it to sexual predators, saying that if they knew the person was a sex offender, and was going to another church, she’d warn the other church. And everyone in the class seemed to agree. But, everyone quickly followed up, only warn the other church THEN. Not if the volunteer was causing spiritual or emotional pain, or even a split in the congregation. You can’t warn the next church congregation victim of the destructive volunteer is the volunteer does ONLY spiritual or emotional damage to their previous church.
WHY IS THAT?
I mention this because I think it shows a fault in our physically-aware Western culture. If someone is going to harm the physical side of another person, we do everything we can to stop it (as we should). But if someone is known for causing spiritual harm, or emotional harm, well, the victim should just toughen up. Distance themselves, if they can, sure, but often we Christians encourage them to stay in the painful, awful situation.
SERIOUSLY?
By saying that, we are saying that the physical part of a person is the most important, or most valuable part. At least, that’s how I see it. Protect the physical part of people from those who would do harm, but if we know of other harm – our hands are tied.
GAH!!!
Assuming you believe in an afterlife, than you probably believe that physical body is not the part that lives on. It is not the most important part of you. Is it important? Sure. Are all the facets of who you are (physical, spiritual, emotional, mental – just to name the big ones) somehow intertwined with your physical body? Yes. If a man rapes a girl, is he somehow also harming her emotionally, spiritually, and mentally (despite the fact he’s only touching her physical body)? More than likely – yes.
We put so much emphasis, so much importance, on the physical world. On our bodies, on our possessions, what we can see, hear, taste, touch and smell. We call this physical world Reality. But the thing is, this Reality, this physical world, it’s not going to last. Look around, decay is everywhere. Western Culture’s Reality is crumbling, and crumbling quicker by the day. And yet we cling to what our physical bodies can experience, ignoring the fact that God created us with other, more long-lasting parts.
Why is that?
We get so trapped up in this immediate world, that we forget to prep for the next. We forget to protect the spiritual and emotional parts of us and of others. We forget (or get too lazy) to stretch the mental parts of us. The parts of ourselves that we can’t see, we forget matter. And so they sit, curled up in the fetal position, in the corner of our existence, starving to death with skeleton-like faces and twig arms, too emaciated to even cry out.
Something needs to change. Our priorities need to change. The way we see the world, the way we experience the world, the way we view ourselves, needs to change.
Only God can change our perspective. Only He can help us remember that the world we live in is more than a physical one, that who we are is more than a body and a mind. But the change of perspective, the realization that this physical world is not the only layer of our existence, is vital. It needs to happen. Has to happen. So pray. Pray that God will change how you see yourself and others, and that you can be an influence in changing what others think is most important.
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Faces of God
I met with a Catholic priest this last week.
And for that to mean anything to you, you have to understand that while I have had a few brushes with Catholics (babysitting, amazing passionate roommates in college, awesome friends) I have never had a theological conversation with a Catholic priest. I grew up in a Christian home, sure, but as I grew up my family always attended non-denominational churches…except for Christmas and Easter when we went to the Lutheran church my grandparents attended. I don’t think I was ever of the opinion that Catholics aren’t Christians – like some people who grew up as I did. I mainly knew Catholics went to “mass” instead of church, prayed to Mary, and had pictures of people with shiny, golden halos. Obviously, I was rather uneducated.
And so, as an adult, to hear another member of the faith’s view of God, eternal life, and life in general, was pretty eye-opening for me. To be taught a very little bit about how a Catholic views life and redemption and sins, was intriguing, encouraging, challenging. The things that caught my attention most though, were the reverence and total commitment. The wonderful man I spoke to had such a very different view of God. This man was definitely committed to God; I sincerely doubt that he was in it for the money, fame, or glory (because, you know, there is so much money, fame or glory in true ministry). There was just something … deep and solid about him. And while I did not agree with all of the theological points he covered with me, I still walked away with a greater understanding and view of who God is.
I think this is important, and I think we do not do it enough. We read books whose message we agree with. We are friends with those who think as we do. How often do we actually engaged in conversation someone, who while having the same fundamental beliefs as us, disagrees with our view of God. How much of God are we missing out on because we think we understand Him completely and correctly, that we have no room for new ideas, or different sides of Him that we have never engaged?
For instance, I know that each of my friends brings out different parts of my personality. While my foundational character never changes, the kids I work with bring out the goofy in me that some of my “grown-up” friends never see. Not because I’m trying to hide the goofy side of me, but simply because nothing in their personality calls out the goofy in me.
I think the same is true of God. It is imperative that YOU encounter Him in your life, engage Him with everything you are. But also talk to other people about God – especially those you don’t see eye-to-eye with. Learn how they experience God, learn what He has done for them, and HOW.
I often am a victim of my own experiences. In that, because God worked one way with me, I expect Him to work the same way with everyone else. But that’s not how God works. He works differently through everyone.
And so, figure out how God works in someone else. Talk to them about how they seem Him, and why.
Learn to see the different sides of God. Learn to know God better, that you might love God better.
Now, it needs to be said while I am all for engaging different ideas, I in no way believe the whole “everyone gets to god in their own way, there are many paths, all religions talk about the same God” thing. Nope. None of that. The only way to God is through Jesus. He said so; incredibly clearly (John 14:6). However, once you have the crucifixion, resurrection, and salvation as the foundation of your theology, there are many other less-important ideas that need to be discussed.
Now, THAT being said, I am NOT saying, “Never talk to someone of a different religion”, because that’s not the case either. Definitely talk to them. Be friends with them. We need that sort of friendship, and they do too.
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Growth like Spring
I feel pretty confident in stating that spring is finally here. Granted, I live in Colorado, so we might be in for another snow fall – or not. If we do get more snow, it won’t stick around long.
It is SO refreshing to walk out the door and smell fresh air full of the scent of newly-growing things. While I love winter, I have been waiting for some time now for green grass and the beauty of sun illuminating thin petals of tulips and pansies and creeping flox. There is something about this time of year that makes a girl SO glad she’s alive.
I know of people who love a certain season so much that they wish they could only live in the one. But each season needs the others to make it happen.
I mean, without winter, without the time for the earth to rest, to be gently replenished through snowfall and cooler temperatures and plant-leftovers, spring wouldn’t happen. We might not be able to see all of the good that is going on beneath the brown, forgotten grass or in the barren garden but good, vital stuff is happening. And then, when the time is right (and usually so much later than when I’m ready for it) spring quietly spreads over the land so quietly that often I don’t notice it until quite a lot has happened and it feels like spring just showed up over night.
The thing is, this happens in us too. We can pray and pray and pray for God to do something specific in us, or work soooo hard to conquer something, or get frustrated that nothing is happening. But growth is happening – it might just be a winter season, where you need to rest and replenish before the purples, reds, yellows, blues, and greens of spring burst forth from you. God likes to work in secret on us for long bouts of time before showing off what He’s done.
So don’t give up hope, if you’re hoping for growth in yourself. If you’ve been praying for God to help you to forgive someone, or to be able to conquer some specific sin, keep praying, keep doing whatever it is He has asked you to do. If you’re feeling “stagnant”, as occasionally I do, don’t give up. Think of that time as the very end of winter. You’re practically itching to grow because you sense it is time.* But don’t worry, He IS doing a good work in you, and He WILL complete it. In His time, in His way, probably when you aren’t even looking for it.
And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.
Philippians 1:6
*In my experience, that itching can mean one of two things. The first – like I said, God is ready for your personal growth to burst forth for all to see. Or second – God is causing in you a stirring for growth because it is time you and He work on that – which probably means you’re going to need to trust Him through the coming winter. So trust, and do as He prompts, because He is doing an amazing work!
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Easter freedom
It is Easter in a few days. I love Easter. Perhaps that is because of all the fond memories I associate with this time of year: the hats and white gloves and orchid corsages and new dresses when I was a little girl, the egg hunts, the bunny-baskets full of candy, the family gatherings and good food.
As I’ve gotten older a few of those traditions have fallen to the wayside – like the hats and white gloves and orchid corsages. (I should’ve kept the hat one, but I don’t have time to find the perfect Easter hat these days).
But, I HAVE picked up a few other traditions along the way – like watching the movie Chocolat and making coconut macaroons. I love me some chocolate and coconut…and somehow those flavors work best together around this time of year. 
As for Chocolat, I love the reminder of grace and mercy that the movie subtly speaks of. For that is what this holiday is all about, is it not? Through Christ’s sacrifice, God extends us grace and mercy.
I think, often though, we get focused on simply Jesus’ death and resurrection. Which, don’t get me wrong, is a big deal. Without His death and resurrection, we would still be in an insecure state as to our relationship with God the Father. Because of sin, God could not interact with us humans in the way He originally had intended and desired. But, because of Jesus’ death, or more accurately, because of Jesus life and resurrection, God could.
And that’s where we stop. We forget to apply Easter to our lives. Because of Easter we are covered by Jesus’ blood. Because of Easter, our sins no longer interfere with our relationship with God. Because of Easter, God’s grace and mercy extend over, around, through, and under us. We are accepted. He loves us (not that He didn’t before). Because of Easter, you don’t have to be perfect, or even mostly good. Jesus’ blood covers all the gunk in your life, so you don’t have to sit there, covered in it, and focus on it. You no longer have any need to be reminded of the gunk and sin, you can get up and walk away from it. God will clean that up; God will clean YOU up. Sure, He’ll ask for your help, but He’ll do it. You don’t (you CAN’T) do it on your own. And THAT is what Easter is about: Jesus taking on the responsibility of cleaning up your mess. (Now…if only He would clean up my chocolate-and-coconut-covered kitchen….)
You are free, my friend. Because of Easter, you are free indeed. Now, go and live as if that were true. And treat others as if that were true as well. Because it is. But most Christians forget that. We have to live our life a certain way, maintain a Christian Culture standard, and if you don’t…well then… But that’s NOT why Jesus died. He died so that all might come and hang out with Him – no matter their past sins. I think so often we forget that when Jesus was on Earth, He hung out with the low-lifes, those no one else wanted to associate with because they were the misfits, the thieves, the prostitutes, the betrayers, the less-than-smart, the unclean, the social definitely not accepted. And He invited them to be His friends, to be part of His earthly story. Which means there is hope for each and every one of us. That He’s inviting you to come and sit at His table.
Now, don’t get me wrong. There will be a price to pay. While Christian Culture turns its back on those who aren’t clean enough, or say the wrong things, or do the wrong things, Secular Culture does the same to Christians. But, if you are willing to deal with that, if you are willing to accept what Jesus did for you – and live in that freedom (and I’m not talking about the rule book that many in Christian Culture say you must live by), than this day – Easter, is truly a life-changing day worth celebrating!
He is Risen!
He is Risen indeed!
(Now, go LIVE that way!)
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More than you can handle
I have heard more than once recently that “God doesn’t give us more than we can handle.”
For the record, yeah, that’s not true. It’s definitely not scriptural. In fact, I bet if you could talk to Job, Noah, Abraham, Moses, David, and Peter, that they would all say at one point or another that God gave them more than they could handle. Even Jesus, that night in Gethsemane, asked God if he could get out of the next couple coming days, and he sweat drops of blood (this happens when a person is under a great deal of stress).
The closest scripture I could find to this saying is 1 Corinthians 10:13, which states in the ESV, “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.”
But temptation is different than life struggles. Your dad having cancer is a life struggle, not a temptation. Your friends betraying you is a life struggle, not a temptation. I mean, sure, within the life struggle you will find the temptation to reject God, or reject parts of Him you know to be true. And that was Satan’s goal in taking everything away from him – to get him to curse God. But life struggles happen, and aren’t temptations in and of themselves.
But I bet, as the messengers came running to Job about his children dying, and his cattle, sheep and other sources of his wealth, Job would have said that this was too much, that God had given him more than he could handle. But mostly he just asked “why”.
Talk to the people in Africa, who are now orphans because both of their parents died of AIDS and are now starving. Or to any of the refugees anywhere on the planet. I bet they would all say “it’s too much”.
And it is. Why wouldn’t it be? Life is hard, and often it is more than a person can handle on their own. I don’t care if your life is cushy or if your life is super-hard, it’s more than you can handle. Something will come up that will send you over the edge. Which is why God calls us to community and to be in constant communion with Him. Because life IS more than we can handle on our own. But with Christ and with the community He has given us, we never have to do it on our own.
Even Job didn’t have to go through his trials alone. I mean, sure, his friends could have been a bit more supportive and trusting, but at least they sat down with him, and sat through the pain with him. Now, I’m sure at times he would have preferred they leave, their advice was that poisonous, but even their horrible advice seems to have pushed Job that much more to not curse God.
So yeah, the saying “God doesn’t give you more than you handle” is pretty much a lie. He allows stuff all the time to happen that is more than we can handle. But through that stuff, God is there and if you are dependent on Him, you will get through. And one of the ways He reaches out to you is through the community you and He have gathered around you. Life is not meant to be lived alone. You can’t do it on your own (even people who think they can find ways to get around the pain – whether they watch too much TV, are super-focused on their body, or drink, or whatever it is they can find to escape).
God WILL give you more than you can handle. On your own you will shut down emotionally. You will curse Him. You will no longer see a reason to live, or how you possibly could live through this. You might mentally snap.
But God will never give you more than you and He and your community can handle. There isn’t one example in scripture of God doing that. He’s not an evil, malicious God. He is just, and righteous, and loving. He takes care of His kids. It might be hard, but if you are at His side, He’ll guide you through.
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A slice of Humble Pie
For whatever reason, the idea of humility has been bouncing around me for the last couple months. Whether it’s just the current fad, or God’s trying to teach me something, well, I guess I need to ask Him.
Growing up, I was given the idea that humility meant thinking more of others than yourself. That it meant taking care of others at the expense of you – your time, your money, your abilities, everything.
But, if we say the best example in the Bible of a humble person is Christ…than that’s not really true. I mean, sure, He eventually did give up His life for the good of the world, but that’s because that was His job, His calling, His purpose. But that’s not really how He lived His life. Throughout the Gospels we often find Jesus sleeping, or taking time out with just Him and God – even if there are people around wanting to learn from Him. He took time to refresh.
He knew His human limits. He knew what He could do, and did it when it was appropriate. And He knew what He couldn’t do (think temptation after 40 days, or His quiet times with God). And in all things, He depended on His Father (God the Father) for strength, and on the Holy Spirit for insight. Jesus couldn’t do it all by Himself, and He acted in that knowledge.
Nor did He think He had to stay around to watch His church grow. Nope. He knew that wasn’t His job, and He empowered the men whose jobs it was – His disciples.
So, basically, humility is being aware of who you are – of your strengths and your weaknesses, and admitting to them and using them to the glory of God. But even more than that, it means owning your dependence on God, and listening to Him. Being aware of which jobs you’d be the best for, and which ones you should NOT accept because you can’t do them…or because they tempt you too badly. Being aware of your body, and allowing it to be healthy (you know, feed it right, exercise, and REST it – physically, mentally and spiritually). Humility means you are aware of the needs of the world around you, and your own, and you meet those needs as God leads.
I would end this by saying, “Know thyself”…but I think that’s not really possible without Christ revealing to you who exactly you are. You can try it on your own, but I don’t think it’s going to turn out as well as it would with Christ. So, let Him show you who you are. Ask Him to show you your strengths and your weaknesses. Ask Him to give you opportunities to grow you, and experiences that remind you of your complete and utter dependence on Him.
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In His Chrysalis 
