“Your life is shaped by the end you live for. You are made in the image of what you desire.”
Thomas Merton
So, in the middle of a crazy life – in the midst of developing and cultivating friendships, between writing papers and attending classes, from frantic scurry to job to hectic driving to ministry – what, exactly is it that I desire? What, specifically do I desire? What is shaping me?
I like to think God. I WANT to think God. I’m even brash enough to look at my life and think, “God”. But, is He really? Or am I being side tracked by other, lesser important things, that are shaping me in ways that are not daring and bold and who I was originally designed to be? Am I settling for less?
What is the end I am living for? What is the end I currently have my eyes on? Is it bigger than just finishing this semester, or beginning the next project?
What are my deepest desires – the ones I know and few others do? The ones even I don’t want to admit to myself (do I even have those)? And how are those shaping what I do now, who I am now, who I am becoming?
Who is shaping me? What is shaping me?